I wait patiently at the door of happiness for it to open. I wish more materialistic things mattered to me so that I would not miss love so much. In my life I have always had the materialistic things I have wanted. When my heart was broken by the people I loved, I just moved on, hoping for a brighter day. Surprisingly I still haven’t given up after taking so many wrong turns. I still want to love someone and to be loved in return.
I sometimes wish that I didn’t have such a big heart. To feel sorry for people, for not being able to hurt someone that hurt me. To survive in this world, I guess we need to learn how to be cruel, how to be selfish and we have to learn to expect from others. But what if you just don’t have the heart to do it? Is being a nice person a crime? I sometimes feel like it, because through experience I know many people love to take, people like me for granted.
Lot of people think love is that perfect person in our mind. But looks can be deceiving; it could be a rotten egg with a nice shiny shell. When most people realize it, it’s too late. They have missed the bus to the correct destination. I have done the same mistake. I dreamt of a life with a man, who I thought was perfect, but as I matured I was thankful to god everyday for not letting me marry that man. He still is a perfect man when it comes to outer appearance but he will never appreciate me for who I am. He is far from perfect inside. When your feelings get hurt and when that other person do not want to understand you, you will start to feel like the man you thought was a mega movie star was just a good looking and cheap porn star.
Love for me is when you’re ready to accept a person looking beyond his or her imperfections. I wait for that day to find that man. Who will trust me whole heartedly and believe that love is not that perfect looking girl but the one who is ready to go an extra mile for you. The one who sees your imperfections and your mistakes but still love you and at the same time helps you to be a better person rather than think “Oh, she is too beautiful and I’m in love with her no matter what, even though she ignores me or hurts me in so many ways”. Having a beautiful heart and a soul is what matters. I am not saying physical attraction is not important. The moon is beautiful and it could be easily seen at night but yet people wait to see a shooting star to make a special wish. It’s not easily seen but it’s like true love. It’s rare but more precious and beautiful and it could bring real happiness to a person’s life both inside and out...
SuLi
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