Missing your own reflection

Time passes by and life moves on, in a slow rhythmic pace like a river
It’s behind doors that tears flow with the speed of a running shower
To the world you’re just a happy single person and not a broken lover
Those unusual memories give you strength to make an invisible cover...

What you felt never dies in your heart even though separation was too painful
Many break your heart but there’s always one special, that’s never going to be regretful
Heart loses in a fearful storm and loses meaning of everything else that’s wonderful
It’ll be the only memory you’ll be scared to forget, ‘cos that’s what made you feel beautiful

Just that once when you had your very own flavour of perfection
Missing that someone makes you feel that you’re missing your own reflection
People may walk in, but your hearts no longer the best dish served in a platter
‘Cos at the end of the day you know, this is the only one that matters

Wishing you were a part of that great life becomes your daily thirty minute prayer
You stare hours in to the ocean thinking whether you guys will make a great pair
Love crosses the line of hate because you’re lonely, reminding life is never fair
Beyond time and reasons you'll travel to find what once felt so real but truly rare

SuLi

A Diamond With Fire

To many devils with hidden horns you have given the shoulder to lean on

But when the time was served you were the one, who always had to move on

They were not afraid to say, “this is my piece from your heart” when they ripped it

You still said nothing knowing it will reduce the rhythm of your heart beat



Your eyes hide the pain but heart is like a cracked wall that cannot be fixed

But the crack reminds you that the mind is the only asset that should be risked

Today you know many are not angels even though they are all dressed in white

You’re ready to move away from the danger zone before the vampire gets his bite



Experience teaches rough stones can be made into shiny gems if they have value

There are stones like diamonds, with no fire and hollow like a big balloon

Some people will love you despite of every weakness that they see in you

And it will someday make you forget the bitter past and help to say I love you too…



SuLi

Searching for my lucid dream

As I walked into the glamorous party, I heard my name a thousand times

They asked eagerly, “Baby where have you been, it’s been quite awhile”

We missed you so much one said and you’re crazy tequila rounds

We heard you found a job abroad and went to earn your bucks in pounds



I suddenly felt like a complete stranger, who came from a land far, far away

For the little time I’m here, going to do justice to the character I once used to play

I said, Oh I’ve been around darling, was stuck with some work, you know how it is...

Freedom is limited because of it and not much time to be happy drunk and be at ease...



They bought my story; I knew they are not really bothered, even though they stared

They were once my non related family, who I thought who truly loved and cared

But when I disappeared, they disappeared from my life as if someone dared

There were no text messages, phone calls or IM’s, we eternally used to share



I’m thankful to them in most ways today; thanks to them I found my way to happiness and home

I found the importance of real family and the xoxo’s that actually made me warm

I know myself and who I should be, because of their kind gesture of leaving me alone

Fastest way of losing them was a disappearing bank balance, from a queen you'll be treated like a pawn



This world is strange, materialistic values rule and I love you’s almost mean nothing anymore

People watch you ruin yourself, and then they smirk, and wait to Goss about it like crows

They are cool with you till you have it all, till they think it’s at your backyard the money tree grows

When life's wheel spin the wrong way, your life suddenly becomes like a deserted dance floor...



An orphan little girls smile and the brightness in her eyes are far more beautiful than the glitter that shine

I have come to love the little veracity of my life, with money or no money I am able to genuinely smile

You suddenly realize the silent moments at home can bring more love than a playboy's lies between the sheets

Fancy substances gives you pleasure for a jiffy, but inner calmness will take you through a perpetual lucid dream

SuLi

LOVE- FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE

Dear Lord, keep this precious love of mine forever safe, a soldier's wife in tears silently pray

"I'm truly blessed to have you", whispers a newly engaged to her fiancé, as they decide where to stay

A girl feels butterflies in her tummy, when she meets her dream boy as if she's back in her 3rd grade

"Daddy I'll be fine" smile and says a daughter, through her tears before she leaves for the plane



Why does it hurt so much, doesn't God love me enough, asks a child in pain from her mom

The mom holds him tight wishing the changes will come as if it's the destiny written in her palm

A man on his knees,lost his family among the tides, crashes along with the waves every night

A broken heart with broken dreams, tears roll down & the worlds at a halt, she has finally loses her fight



Dreams that came apart sometimes come together and you suddenly hear the wedding bells chime

A person, who thought has got no talent, writes down his broken thoughts and it all starts to rhyme

One who lost his friend wishes it'll go back to how it was like the sun that rises every morning and shine

For better or for worse we'll love the souls that we cherish among all, till the end of our times...



SuLi

My Journey Continues...

Sometimes I feel like a powerful ray of sun
I try to bring light to lives and a lot of fun
After being there for someone, I always tend to run
‘Cos when they are truly happy, my duty is done

Nobody wants to see that ray of sun in the night
So I slowly slip away before they see the tears I fight
Sometimes I wish there was little space in a corner for me
But the moon reminds me, this is no place for the sun to be

No matter how much I will love to feel connected
When the time expires, I will always get rejected
I pack my little suitcase with no questions asked
Walks away as a stranger always hoping for a new start

My journey continues, no matter what I go through
Tears, laughter and with days that red, white or blue
Sometimes ignorance is bliss and I pretend there’s love
Trying to be grateful for what I have right now

SuLi

The way you make me feel

I'm a bird that freely fly with no care or worries
I do not want or need to answer anyone's queries
I smile at you and you smile back and I am happy
I know I don't need to be your child's mom with nappies

I share with you my inner strengths and my biggest fears
You silently hold me in darkness, making sure there are no peers
I do not need to say I love you to make you feel safe
We only care about the great times we have, it’s not the time or place

I’m just grateful to god everyday for sending my way
Your deserves a lot of happiness and for it I always pray
Tomorrows might never come for us but we do not care
‘Cos we have a lot of fun together and makes a great pair

SuLi

Shadowed Heart

The promises of even you being my friend is forever lost
You left me alone with the misery of my soul without looking back
I’m like no other I have no game plan or a twisted plot
When you are gone all alleys of my heart has turned pitch black

I go on with life thinking tomorrow will be a better day
I pray every morning, night and whenever my heart loses its hopes
God is the only friend who hear what I have to say
When I’m actually free, why do I feel like I’m tied up with ropes?

I’m broken because you never listened to me as a trusted friend
But believes a person who doesn’t value your life even for a moment
Even though some look like angels they are not heaven sent
They are just going to make you suffer and let your heart torment

I’m weak and hurt but I will still give you anything you need
My only wish is to see you smile, being happy and free
In the darkest hour when everything crashes it’s your success I plead
I’ll always be the shadowed strength, so brighter days are all that you see..

SuLi

Who will be my shooting star?

I wait patiently at the door of happiness for it to open. I wish more materialistic things mattered to me so that I would not miss love so much. In my life I have always had the materialistic things I have wanted. When my heart was broken by the people I loved, I just moved on, hoping for a brighter day. Surprisingly I still haven’t given up after taking so many wrong turns. I still want to love someone and to be loved in return.

I sometimes wish that I didn’t have such a big heart. To feel sorry for people, for not being able to hurt someone that hurt me. To survive in this world, I guess we need to learn how to be cruel, how to be selfish and we have to learn to expect from others. But what if you just don’t have the heart to do it? Is being a nice person a crime? I sometimes feel like it, because through experience I know many people love to take, people like me for granted.

Lot of people think love is that perfect person in our mind. But looks can be deceiving; it could be a rotten egg with a nice shiny shell. When most people realize it, it’s too late. They have missed the bus to the correct destination. I have done the same mistake. I dreamt of a life with a man, who I thought was perfect, but as I matured I was thankful to god everyday for not letting me marry that man. He still is a perfect man when it comes to outer appearance but he will never appreciate me for who I am. He is far from perfect inside. When your feelings get hurt and when that other person do not want to understand you, you will start to feel like the man you thought was a mega movie star was just a good looking and cheap porn star.

Love for me is when you’re ready to accept a person looking beyond his or her imperfections. I wait for that day to find that man. Who will trust me whole heartedly and believe that love is not that perfect looking girl but the one who is ready to go an extra mile for you. The one who sees your imperfections and your mistakes but still love you and at the same time helps you to be a better person rather than think “Oh, she is too beautiful and I’m in love with her no matter what, even though she ignores me or hurts me in so many ways”. Having a beautiful heart and a soul is what matters. I am not saying physical attraction is not important. The moon is beautiful and it could be easily seen at night but yet people wait to see a shooting star to make a special wish. It’s not easily seen but it’s like true love. It’s rare but more precious and beautiful and it could bring real happiness to a person’s life both inside and out...

SuLi

Feel Love Through A Pair of Raybans

I stand right in front of the man I was once madly in love with

The one that who use to spin my world three times as fast as it normally does

He use to twist me around his little finger with a wink of an eye

And I was never able to look in to his eyes and say good bye

Today he smiles at me with his same sexy, dimpled cheeks

And I smile back while I take a good look at him in a quick glance like a sneak peek

Nothing much has changed in the way he looks…

Breathtaking and heart breaking and Mr. Gorgeous as always

But slowly my heart and my mind touch reality

It reminds me he was once a dream that was buried with time and sleep

My heart doesn’t melt and no butterflies in my tummy

He is still a wonderful site but almost with no historical value

When I gave all that I have, he acted like I’m a strong ray of sun

That could hurt his eyes and wasn’t surely what he wants

How time changes and he seems that he wants me

But today I’m the one wearing the Raybans and holding to my Michael Angelo

My eyes and my heart, both hundred percent protected

I see the world with love of a different kind, which has greater depth

And never ending hunger while time passes by…

He might not be prince charming but he is the one who draws and writes in me

Who makes my days colourful and fills with trust that never fails

I realized even though we dream for a fairy prince

It’s the artist of your everyday life that is going to match the real colours

And dress you with love and mix with your life in the palette of eternal burning passion.

SuLi

Perfect Rhythm of My Heart

Sometimes you shut out the world and your suddenly home
Life’s endless battles are suddenly at a complete halt
Not all the time you need to be someone else's happiness
Being silent doesn’t mean you have lost all your kindness
Quietness in the outer world will awaken the inner you
It will give you strength of a giant for whatever you want to do
You will know there’s nothing wrong, just the fear of losing
The doors will suddenly open which you thought were forever closing
Love thy self and everything will take its correct form and place
You will not need to go in search for the perfect rhythm or phrase…

Suli

Beyond Pain and a moment in life…

I see beyond your wildest reality or everything you touch and feel

Because my mind has no restricted territories that are sealed

I forgive the ones who hurt so that I can move on in life with ease

Being grateful to life’s little pleasures give enormous amount of peace

Many would say I am a fool to go through this messes over and over again

What they do not know is that it takes real strength to move on and remain sane

There’s no point of blaming anyone when they loses their way to your heart

Just remember that he made you happy, even for a moment before it fell apart

To the strong life is a river, sometime that hits a rock but yet glides down

For the weak, life is just a desert, with no water and a thirsty man always with a frown

I might have got hurt in life’s little battles but yet I am successful, happy and bright

With a heart that carries no weight and can go anywhere with the wind like a kite…

SuLi